Break ups are so hard. Especially when you have no one. I wish I had friends… that could like come to my house right now and do whatever it is that friends do when they go through breakups. Seriously the tears won’t stop.

I had a boyfriend for seven months. That’s the longest I’ve ever been in a relationship. A few hours ago he broke up with me very unexpectedly. It broke me. I am broken. He wasn’t just a fling and not just a boyfriend, but he was also my best friend. Everything hurts so much right now and I can’t even think straight. He made promises to me that he broke today. He betrayed me. Maybe I saw it coming, maybe I didn’t. All I know is that I wasn’t ready for it. I get rejected by everyone. I lost 99% of my friends just because they decided that I’m not good enough for them. Nick promised he wouldn’t be like that and he would always be there for me. Those of you reading this post are probably laughing at that last post and wondering how I could be so idiodic as to believe those words coming from a teenage boy’s mouth. And I honestly don’t know why I believed him. I guess I shouldn’t have. I definately don’t think he was in this relationship for the friendship, but what came with having a girlfriend. I regret a lot of things now. And I don’t see myself trusting anyone as fast as I trusted him. He ruined that trust thing for me. I hope he’s happy. He wouldn’t even give me an explanation as to why he broke up with me, he just said “we are breaking up ok” and then refused to talk to me. He hurt me so much and I don’t really know what I’m going to do now. I feel like I have no one because he deserted me. I’m not exaggerating when I say that he was my best friend. It hurts sooooo much.